Moments > Time
Updated: May 30, 2019
Since becoming a parent, time has a whole new meaning. I am hyper aware of every moment of passing time. Looking back, my concept of time before a kid seems so relaxed and easy. Now, my every thought is in regards to time. There are so many things to consider.
I think about how quickly time passes.
The leap from wrinkly, cuddly newborn to crawling-everywhere-getting-into-everything baby happens in the blink of an eye. My heart aches sometimes at how fast it has all happened. I want to push back time, re-live it. I wish I had taken more time to snuggle, more time to inhale that newborn baby smell, more time to enjoy that first baby giggle, more time to stare a little longer at his sleeping, sweet face before rushing off to unload the dishwasher or throw in a pile of laundry.
I think about how slow time crawls in the hour before daddy gets home from work.
Being a mom is hard work. From crawling on the floor playing, changing poopy diapers, surviving nap time battles, trying to wash clothes, do dishes, prepare meals - it can be a lot. Plus, motherhood can feel very lonely at times. Even if I am never actually alone, not even in the bathroom, mothering littles can feel very isolating. It is a lot of silly voices and one-sided conversations. I find myself craving conversation or even just the sighting of another adult.
But how fast or slow time passes isn’t it. I also think about…
…nap time, feeding time, appointment times, timing of developmental leaps, time spend on tummy, time to change diapers, bedtime, time spent at work versus time spent at home…the list goes on and on.
It is almost impossible to be a parent and not think about time, but I am determined to try. I want my focus to instead be on moments - careful and thoughtfully building memories rather than meticulously managing a schedule and having the misconceived notion I can control time.
While it seems a lifetime ago that I wasn’t a parent, I understand that I am still very new at this mom thing. Despite being a newbie, this lesson seems important, and I have a feeling it is going to be a lesson that I will constantly have to revisit. I am prepared for the challenge though. Any other moms with me?